Devious Journal Entry

hmmm

Yesterday I heard from an old boyfriend in high school. He looked me up after 13 years to touch base and reconnect. It was really nice to hear about his family and how well hes doing. When things end, especially badly, you always wonder...and hope that people have the lives they wished for so young. Back then I just wanted to be a famous artist or a singer. I do feel accomplished with my art even though Im far from famous but lately I just feel like I missed the boat on something. Like I really need to find something worthy to spend my drops of life on. I know someone with a security clearance that told me a small amount about the process of obtaining it. Being an investigator really interests me. Its a way to travel and meet new people, be nosy about someone and make sure those who are worthy get access to things that really make a difference in people lives. Weeding out those that are not doing as they should sounds appealing too. One of my gifts is the ability to assess people character in a very short time and get a good read on them, maybe my Roma ancestery or too many salesmen in my geneology lol im not sure. Even if Im not directly helping people, enabling those who do so much good like my friends would be honorable. Besides on a baser side having an FBI investigator tag would be really choice. Something to think about.